I never understood how much my mom loved me until I became a mom myself. Now I know that probably sounds weird...and I've always known my mom loves me, but never really knew how much she loves me until I felt that love myself with my own baby girl. Every mom out there knows exactly what I'm talking about. It's that true unconditional love that you can't explain in words, that you've never felt before and now couldn't possibly imagine life without being consumed by that love every day. I truly believe now that I've experienced this love with my own child that it has brought me even closer to my mom....and in a strange way has made me respect her in so many ways I never even knew to respect her!
Often when I'm sitting there rocking Bradlie back to sleep in the wee hours of the night and I look down at her peacefully sleeping face and am consumed in love or when I'm nursing her and she looks up at me with those beautiful big eyes that melt my heart every time or when I'm playing with her and her face lights up with joy that brings a smile to my face instantly or when she "kisses" me with her adorable open-mouthed slobbery "kiss" that sends streaks of love through my entire body...I think of my mom and how she must have felt the same way about me when I was her baby girl. And every single time it brings tears to my eyes and I just want to call my mom up to tell her I love her and to tell her thank you for loving me so much! I sometimes even feel guilty for the times I acted out or made her mad as I was growing up just knowing that she loved me that much. It's hard to know that I ever disappointed the woman who loved me more than life itself. In some odd way I wish every child could start life knowing what I know now (and every mom, for that matter) and would be able to reflect back on that every time they wanted to act out against their parents. Now wouldn't that be nice...for both sides of the story!! Haha!
So this post is dedicated to my wonderful, beautiful, ever-loving, kind-hearted, strong, intelligent, amazing mom!!! Mom, I always knew I loved you and I always knew I'd love my own child, but I never knew that having a baby girl of my own would make me love you even more than I already did. And with every passing day and every new milestone Bradlie hits, I love you even more! I love that we have the friendship/relationship we do, but I love even more that in just 4 short days I will get to share all of this with you EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!! I am so ecstatic that you are moving here and am so grateful for the experience that we are about to embark on!
Mom, I love you so much and love that I now know what it feels like to be a mom myself and love somebody as much as you love me! Thank you for all of the sleepless nights I put you through. Thank you for cuddling me when I was sick. Thank you for all of the sacrifices you made to be my mom. Thank you for all of the worry I put you through as your first baby and all of the unknown, scary things that come with that. Thank you for teaching me all of my firsts. Thank you for always doing your best. And most of all thank you for always loving me so much and for being my mom! I will always be your baby girl!
I LOVE YOU!!!!
Mom - I'm one of the only three people on this earth that knows what your heart sounds like from the inside and that is a bond that is unbreakable! I love you!
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